A few weeks ago I was feeling like crap, my old thread.
Today it's not so bad.. pretty good, in fact.
As an update.. four months ago I was shocked to learn my spouse of 25 years decided to leave abruptly to an undisclosed address to live with his girlfriend. He filed divorce papers at the same time.
I was devastated but duly sorta DB'd focusing on the children (two sons 22 and 18, and daughter almost 14). Denial (that he would ever cheat, leave, be so selfish), Realization (that he changed the marriage years ago without telling me, me staying numb).. Guilt (I'm sure it was all my fault) and all sorts of emotions have been crashing, washing over me, soothing me as the process goes on.
The lightbulb moment I feel is surging forward after a few weeks of healing.
