Crap

[Purple]

I know how you feel. I never quite realised what that feeling was.

I never had to worry about what other guys said because I could always retreat behind my wedding ring. Now if a guy (and believe me there aren't many knocking down my door - must lose weight!) says anything remotely flirty to me I have a bit of a stress attack. I spent my life assuming that h was the only one who would love me - I still think that. And therefore punish myself if I suspect a guy is flirting with me ie. I think 'nah...he's just being nice, he wouldn't like me...I'm ugly,stupid,whatever ..'

Ag....can't finish the thought properly. I gotta put d to bed. Myabe I'll try again later....