Where is the real me? What do I want?

[Purple]

Thanks Jeff....I re read it and I agree. It's a major problem with me, I feel like I have to explain everything and it irritates h byond belief. That, and making decisions. I flip flop all the time....as you may have gathered already from my posts

However, maybe I should just let this issue go altogether....there's bigger issues like communication in general that need addressing and maybe this house issue will just rile him up. I'm especially concerned that he will feel like I'm attacking him just before his birthday. But then again, there's always something about to happen that makes me hesitate to bring issues up. Am I making excuses or is that a valid point?

It sucks because there's little urgent and unimportant things that I want to clear up (like access to house adn music CDs and what days he can pick d7 up) but also big and important things that need to be addressed (his other relationships, how I don't trust him, work out how what I've done to him hurts him so bad). which things should I address first? They are so hard to clear up in one hour counselling sessions and besides which, at the moment we are seeing our C separately. I have my next appointment on Thursday. He went to the C this Thursday just past.

I'm outside watching d7 jump on the trampoline (at her insistence). It's bloody cold! The dog also just tried stepping on the laptop! grrr...guess I shouldn't blow air in his face, hey? Poor d, just about all her friends have gone away for school holidays and she's left with me who's addicted to the DB forums at the moment.