Have a great time in Punta Cana! Hope there is a lot of wink wink nudge nudge for you to enjoy while you and your wife spend this special time together. havea safe trip and we will try not to miss you too much while you are gone.
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
John, I see its been a while since you went to this tropical paradise. Hope you pick up a lot more of the pieces there before you get back to this other DR Land. Don't underestimate what you have sacrificed and achieved.
Back from Punta Cana....very hot and humid especially at night when the wind died down....what did i expect in July? All in all a very nice week. D7 made some friends and we pretty much had to drag her out of the water to get something to eat or apply more sunblock. I was quite the social butterfly which is a recent 180 for me. I pretty much talked with anybody who looked my way. W used to say that I should work on being more sociable. But we tend to get into our routine with our friends and extended families and quite honestly, she was probably right. The old John came out this week...the happy go lucky, smiling John. The alcohol had nothing to do with it becasue they really water down the drinks at these all inclusive resorts. On the relationship front, things went well. We did not have much privacy SMW, so the nudge nudge was held to a minimum. I did my best to remain upbeat throughout the whole week and did a good job i think. In the past i may have gotten impatient. W actually got me a few drinks and made me taste some of her food. Nothing major but these are some small signs of things getting back to normal. She actually initiated some contact but in all honesty, I did not give her the opp. I was a tad lovey dovey. Gave her plenty of words of affirmation (LL) regarding her looks that she seemed to appreciate. In conclusion, the week went by pretty quickly and D7 was very happy to be with her parents 24/7. I lost my temper with W once (very small and quick) and was surprised that D7 caught it and asked me to not get mad with mommy. As a 'piecer" I find myself looking for signs (like i was post bomb except alot less) that W is back to normal. I think I have to come to the realization that it won't be the same...not so much because of W but because of me. I have changed....alot of positives but also some negatives. Negatives like lack of trust etc. How can you be the recipient of an aerial campaign for 8 months and not be affected by it? Thank - you for your posts....i will try to catch up on your sitches as the day progresses.
I do struggle with trust and some other little things. I read on BBJ's thread how she feels that her H puts her last on the totem pole. I also feel that way at times. I am way down ther after D7, her business and sometimes even her friends. For now I am just happy to be in the game and I may be making too much out of the sitch because of what I / we went through.
I feel strange saying this because some folks may think I am just being negative (again) but sometimes I think that this won't work. Then I look at D7 and see how happy she is and who the hell am I to complain. Suck it up......
Sucking it up does not sound good to me. Maybe "correct TIMING" is a better option? You need to address issues that bother/worry you. You just need to be sensitive about when you bring things up and how you do that. Ignoring issues doesn't sound wise to me. I hope you are not falling back to familiar patterns. You know where those lead, right? Your D is a motive for both of you, not just you... Love K
