Today I realized it was soooo true. He's a Gemini, btw.

He's passive aggressive in his hits and plays his "caring" cards so well. I don't know why I expect his break to be clean. He told me he's done. More today than any day ever. That he just doesn't want to be with me. That somehow we just "ended up together" in our earlier relationship and that we never were compatible.

Here's the thing: I really did know all this. That he was done, blah blah blah. But him factoring back our cracks to the time we had kids just blasts me. I realize he (and we) are not the be all and end all. That is obvious. But when I'm told that I/our family was nothing from the beginning, I begin to have problems with it.


Me: 42/H: 37
T: 10 years/M: 8
D9, S8
Bomb: 7.23.07
Separated: 1.20.08
D Final 3.19.09
Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09

My life is good.