Trouble on the lake erie shore #3

[Jeremyt]

I hear ya man. I feel the same way. I go back and forth between wondering if it's worth the effort and trying like hell.

I know my wife packed up a cute black dress in her suitcase when she went to the apartment for the weekend. We have dinner plans tomorrow night. I'm wondering if the cute black dress is to wear to dinner with me or bar plans with a single guy she's made on sunday. Seeing stuff like that kinda gets me all riled up and breaks the DB skills a little. I'm going to have to be strong at dinner when if I see her not in the cute dress. Then I know it's for another guy she's clinging to for validation.

I keep making all the internal changes to me as well. I hope like hell it saves the marriage. I have to keep reminding myself that the changes I make need to be for me because whether the marriage survives or not I'm still left with me. The changes I am making are good for me and my kids no matter what.

Try roll with that logic.

I know, I know, it's easy to SAY that. We have got to let them go and see if they ever want to come back. They may not.

I'll keep praying for peace and reconciliation for everyone I see on this board. You're right, at least we have a good place to vent, where folks understand and care. A virtual world or not, it's still a good place.