I so appreciate everyone's support... you are a great group of people and i pray that amazing changes happen in your Marriages.

I don't think i'm going to be posting so much anymore. At least not for now. I'll probably read up on some of your sitches and offer advice if i can, but i think i'm done.

In the matter of a month, i've gone from wanting to work on it, to not wanting to work alone, but not giving up to being completely hopeless...

I just want out. It hurts to bad everyday to live like this. I'm not going to leave or anything yet, but i'm probably going to sit down and put a timeline on how long i'll live like this with no change in him. i just can't continue to hurt this bad on a daily basis and have him blame it on me. He says it's my own fault that i'm unhappy and that our M is what it is... he's right, so now i'll just have to see what will make me happy.

if someone has some good advice for me and you think there is a way to beat it into my thick head... that would be fantastic cause i've never been a quitter. I just can't keep feeling like this all the time.

I was and still am willing to let the me loving him again take as long as it takes, i would never rush that. I do have to put a limit on the amount of verbal abuse i'll put up with.

We took my Ds to dinner for their birthday and she didn't want him to come in (she told him and i had nothing to do with it) cause he kept hurting me. She said that even though mommy hides when she crys it still isn't nice... He asked if i put her up to it... it's not fair to my girls to let them think this is a healthy R and it's not okay with me to live like that...

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If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown

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