Trying ... well if you can call it that, I guess.

[AliSuddenly]

Hi Abbey,

Thats a good idea about the supplements, I've heard they can help, but what is an elliptical machine !?

I also find it draining seeing my ex. I have felt like lying low tonight and often tell people I feel exhausted afterwards. Its not as bad know we do it more regularly than it was in the early days. I thuoght it was becuase I was behaving rather like him in that it has led me to wear the mask..I cant say any of the things I want to to him, or be natural in my reactions, or free with my emoitions, I have to put on a front and this is what I find exhausting. From what I understand from him, thats what he has done all his life - worn the mask and that has led to his depresion in part I think. As I said though, it does get easier with practice, so if you can see you H with less big gaps in between, I guess it would get easier.

You dont say how old you are or how long you have been together and also, I am amazed, is he seeing a MOW then with 4 kids !?

Thanks for your help on my thread and I identify with how tiring all this is...
Ali xxx