Hating when the kids are gone, how do you cope?

[7 Year Itch]

So H just asked me today if he could have the girls stay tomorrow AND Sunday night. Last weekend was their first overnight there (one night) and it about killed me. Due to the way we are separated right now and the distance, he has to do all his midweek visiting here at the house. So weekends are his only chance for overnights. He has a really all over the place work schedule, so we have not set a routine for days yet. We are kind of taking it week by week, but in general he is seeing the girls 4 days a week.

Last weekend, I had 2 friends over for dinner the night the girls were gone and it STILL killed me. How on earth do I get through 2 nights? I've been a SAHM for 7 years, I have NO single friends, not any extra mad money, so trying to GAL and occupy myself is a bit hard right now.

I'll have church Sunday morning, but besides that, no plans. I couldn't sleep in last time he had the girls because I had an early Dr. appt. I could sleep in two mornings which will be nice, but if it's like last weekend ,I woke up at 6am (out of habit) and couldn't fall back asleep anyway.

I just hate this. I want to be doing stuff with them. Iwant to tuck my girls in to bed WITH him. I don't want to say my prayers over the phone. I hate this, I hate this.

I know for some, they enjoy having the "me" time, and you know when my marriage was in tact, getting me time was GREAT. But it just doesn't feel like a "treat" this way. It feels like the world being taken from me.

Help. How do you cope during your separation when you don't have your kids?

Chris