Thank you S&S..You are right and i know these things yet I can't always do them. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I wish he would have had his affair, came home told me he loved me and was sorry and we could just put it all behind us. But instead I wonder if he'll ever love me again. He recently told me that due to my actions he doesn't love me and is here only for the kids right now. Yet he doesn't want a D??? Sometimes I feel as though he tests me and WANTS me to make him angry so he can justify his actions perhaps? So i need to stop the pushing and Act as if we are over for now..If I notice that he does indeed instigate than I'll know that we will never be ok and I'll have to end it. I'm hoping that I'm wrong though and we will be ok..
Me: 36 H: 34 2 D's: 10+13 Married: 13 yrs(Together 15) Found out about A-Jan 08 Finally ended April 08..I hope?? Struggling to co-exist in peace
