me:Also, T has told you she is still very mad at me? What happens when she decides she isn’t mad anymore but still loves me? (duh it’s so slow here today)..
Cousin:Really T doesn't talk to much about it, but i would say she is, sometime it comes up what happened, but not very often(i think T has had more time to process it).
Me:What do you mean sometimes it comes up what happened..? You know I would like to have nothing better than not to have done what I did, but I made a bad decision.. I just finished week 5 of 8 in counseling and will never play cards etc again.. not worth it.. I know I am very addicted, so no choice but to never do it again.. like an alcoholic that can’t drink. I would make myself suffer if it meant keeping T.
A guy I go with, who lives in Carstairs, super nice guy had the same thing with his girlfriend , he thought he’d never see her/talk to her again but guess what, they are starting to be friends again.. cool. Anyways that’s my rant for the day..
I know T says things that make me remember that she cares/loves me. Stuff like remembering my smell (the other day).. and other little things (I know it’s small to most, but huge to me).. I am sure she knows I really love her still..
Cousin:some time something will happen when i'm around T(nothing in perticular) and she will relect back on what happen and say something(kind of like you rantin). Really though T doesn't say alot to me about it, and maybe thats cuz you and i are so close(i don't know). But in the same sense your right she will say things like "thats smells like D". Sometimes people end up back together after things like this, but sometimes there never will. So it's ok to hold out for hope, but don't always bank on it(if you know what i mean).
