cousins response:

I don't think you can do anything other than what your already doing. And your right if you tell the truth you don't have to remember the lies.. Ya i'm pretty sure she know's you still love her, but sometimes that isn't enough. I'm sure she loves you(you don't just quit loving someone over night), but once again Love just isn't enough some times.

my response:

T has learnt a lot of stories about me in the past month that she never knew.. funny stuff /sad stuff/ stuff..

One story I don’t know if I ever told her, my last girlfriend before her (who lives in the US).. I had bought an engagement ring for her, but she turned me down and that was it, I was devastated for months.. (I ever tell u that story? ) …

Yeah just keep being the best me I can be.. there is always hope.. (without hope we are all doomed)..