All settled in 250 miles apart

[JWS]

Thanks,

Your right she is not vindictive, I just feel used but that is one of many feelings that I have been having. Really its kind of a dumb feeling because it implies that I was doing all of that for something in return and that is not the case. I was doing it to help her start school on the best possible foot that she can. Right now that is all that really matters.

This is her one shot right now to do something like this. She is so consumed by it that she is not paying attention to any other aspect of her life.

Yes it is confusing, I hate bouncing back and forth between emotions, and i can not stop planning things in my head. That’s what i do is plan and organize things and I am trying to make sense out of something that does not make sense and more importantly is out of my control. I am working hard on me and like the man I am becoming I just hope I get to share it with her someday.

Thanks for listening. This long weekend is getting to me. I use to live for weekends like this but now I would much rather be at work. Very strange, i was always the guy who would blow off work for just about any reason.