I've come full circle/LTA & MLC 7/8

[kat727]

I was supposed to go to my boss' this morning for a pancake feed. My Dad wanted me to check a couple things on the car before I drive so I probably won't go now. Then I was supposed to go this afternoon to my parents for fireworks.

So my plans are up in the air now. Just one more problem to add to my pile. The thing that bothers me was that I thought I was doing really well and then this happens and I fall right back into it. It probably will just be a blip on my radar later but for now it is just so raw.

I realize how little he cares for me while he is in this alien state. There is emotion there, him getting angry at me when I hit a nerve. Last night was the first night in two years that I didn't pray that our marriage work out. I just can't stand someone who has so little regard for me, especially when I was in crisis mode.

You guys have seen him so clearly and I still had my rose colored glasses on, refusing to see the worst. Hopefully this will help me get over the last bit of caring I had for the f*cktard(Thanks Sugar, I like that one!)

I am going to take a shower, start working on a new day. Thanks everyone for stopping by and your very kind words. Kind of sad I know, but I would be lost without all of you.

kat