Jeanette. Wow I'm glad you are ok. Didn't I mention today there was a three car pile up behind me.
I think tonight was just about me getting stuff off my chest. Things she always said to me about the kids. You would rather be with your little buddy Josh then be with the kids. Etc...
You know it is funny but she said she didn't plan to be out that late it just happened. hmmm pretty funny same here, but I was demonized for it.
I know it doesn't matter. I'm trying to reason with someone that just isn't reasonable.
Tonight I went out and drank virgin mary's. It is pitiful out there in the bar scene. One girl for every ten to twenty guys and the girls are just tramps with attitudes. They know it. They know they could have any guy they want and they don't want any of them.
Well I must say I should be looking on the bright side. At least my wife wasn't in a club till 3 AM tonight. She hangs with 16 year olds. Maybe I'm better off.
I'm doing better. My mind stop racing. I don't feel down. I don't think about her like I used too. You know in a way she is becomming unattractive. Then I just start thinking in some ways it is good she is gone. No one there b|tching about every little thing.
I really appreciate all you people setting me straight.
You know in a way I thing getting all this out on her now may help reconcilation if it ever happens.
You know I still think she is just trying to give me a lesson. There were times I stayed out shooting till 11 and the kids would cry for me. You know the kids should have been in bed too. She created this stay up late monster stuff. I fear it is only going to get worse. There is no schedule. All summer she is going to be working nights till 12.
