Hey sweetie, thinking about how tough it is on the body and not being able to sleep. The Melatonin is at any store that sells vitimins. It is natural and it has that seratonin that the brain needs too. However, it usually takes about 9 mg to work. If you don't take enough, you will go to sleep and wake up in a couple of hours and not be able to get back to sleep. I use the bottle that has 3 mg in them and take 3 every night. A lot of people find that ST John Warts helps with depression. It is also natural and can be found in the same department. The only thing, I never knew how much to take. If it is severe depression, I don't think it is strong enough, but for mild depression, it seems to work faily well for a lot of folks.

You could try it and see. But I know that if you get sleep deprived, then the depression is going to increase! Your brain loses seratonin levels and probably other chemical stuff. Remember what that doctor told me when I went the first time to get meds for depression. If it is a chemical thing happening in your brain.....then you can't do it by your self will. We can't control the chemicals in our body or the hormones by just waiting it out or overcoming it with our self will.

Sweetie (my pet name), I am worried about you. You know I care....at least I hope you do. You are fastly getting to the "non-functional" stage. See how you make out with doing the house work. See what you energy level is like. Evaluate your interest in what you are doing. Are you forcing yourself? Are you enjoying any of it? Lord knows, I have been there!

I appreciate anyone that has been able to go this long without taking very much medicine. I rememeber my grandparents always saying, "I don't want to get on any of that dope". That is what they called any kind of prescription medicine. But, when you get to a place that if nothing else works, you have to do whatever you have to do in order to get through and make it.

I will be thinking about you this weekend. Let's be strong together. I know it is hard to fight those thoughts off that come out of nowhere about the OM. Believe me, I understand what kind of feelings you are experiencing.

I am here for you. Please take care of yourself.

Sandi

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!