You do what you wanna do, I leave it all up to you

[Virtually_Handsome]

You could tell him you had one and find out?

Or act like you did, and don't tell him a thing?

OK, it is too late, and I'm saying stupid stuff. He'd use that to justify what he is doing. It would make him feel better.

[Sugar and Spice]

Kinda sad right now. I have been feeling kinda sad for the last couple of days and sent H a text message telling him that and he didn't respond. I don't know what I expected, but complete silence was not it.

Maybe I'll just live vicariously through Michelle and "Hot Guy"...seems safer for right now.

[Virtually_Handsome]

(((((Corey)))))

It's ok to be sad. It really is. He can't fix it. He can't fix himself right now.

[MichelleLT]

((((((Corey)))))))

Sorry, took me a day to find your new thread.

Happy Belated Birthday to your little angel!

It's okay to be sad, but don't expect him to do anything about it.

I think you should come have margaritas with me instead!

[Snow White]

I'm sad too Corey, some days are just harder than others aren't they? Give me a call anytime.

[GoingForward]

I think you should come have margaritas with me instead!

Yes, I vote for that!

((((((((((Corey))))))))))

Hope you're feeling a little better today. We're here for you.

[Sugar and Spice]

Thanks guys, I'm not feeling much better today, but I'll get through it. I think maybe DD's birthday was a kind of trigger or just realizing that July is finally here and things are no better than they were and I had hoped that they would be. The reality of him being gone for 6 months is setting in and I'm looking at my finances and I don't know how I'm going to do this by myself. The money he pays for "support" now only really covers the house payment and some of the bills - the rest is up to me and I'm finding that with gas going up and everything else, I'm not going to be able to make ends meet and I'm scared. I'm really just scared of being alone. I'm just an emotional mess right now. Facing the reality that H could be here if he really wanted to, but just doesn't is hard. You go along fine and then all of a sudden it just hits you like a ton of bricks and its so damn hard not to let it get to you or take it all so personally. I know its not about me, but somewhere in the back of my mind I can't help but ask, "Man, what'd I do to deserve this?"

[water2moon]

Does the OW ever consider how if he leaves you then you too will be a single mom? So not right how selfish these Op can be? You sound amazingly strong though I must say..wish I could be more like you.

P.S. Happy Birthday to your DD

[Sugar and Spice]

Does the OW ever consider how if he leaves you then you too will be a single mom? So not right how selfish these Op can be? You sound amazingly strong though I must say..wish I could be more like you.

Funny you should say that because that was totally my thought after I read that text. She is scared of being a single mom? She already is.

I'm still convinced she planned on getting pregnant, but then again I don't have anything nice to say about her. Her total selfishness amazes me. She is emotional because she feels like a homewrecker? WTF?

Why would he keep a text that long? Its strange.

It also amazes me that these OW/OM go into it knowing that they are with a married person and all they care about are their own feelings.

Does she really believe that even if they end up together that they will have some fairy tale and live happily ever-after? I think that OW thinks that we (me & kids) will just go away and they will have their little life together. That or she thinks she will be a part of my kids' lives and she really doesn't want that, seriously. DS is so ready to give her a piece of his mind, and it will be something she will never forget.

She just doesn't realize that once she gets H all to herself, she just might be getting more than she bargained for. He has essentially gone out and recreated what he ran from, the difference is that this time around it was done during his Poker Tweeker phase and so its going to be a lot messier than the first time around.

Its so messed up, but he chooses to keep it this way, thats the part that really hurts. He could make it stop, but he WON'T.

[MichelleLT]

She could make it stop as well, but she won't.

And in reality, you could make it stop. That much you do have control over.

But that goes against our belief in M. And you've got fight left in you.

((((((Corey)))))))