Trouble DB'ng Again..How Do I Forget?

[water2moon]

Sara thank you for the reply..i did actually check out Retrouvaille and there is a session right in my town in September..However H refuses to go. The last couple of weeks have been really bad..Our fights are escalating and we just seem to not be able to talk without an argument. Yesterday I told him that something he said earlier upset me. Basically he told me that I thought sex would fix all of our problems. But he was very vulgar and it upset me. Apparantly this was a problem, he sees this as my wanting to pick a fight. I see it as communicating. I've been reading DR a lot and I can relate to Carol and Dean's story.. Dean sounds a lot like my H. Carol basically decided to stay married and start focusing on herself..But it took a long 8 months for her to get her H back. The woman had the patience of a saint..i'm not sure I do..I guess my problem is I expect him to be madly in love with me again and he just pushes farther away..So now I have to act as if I don't care and I have to take the focus off the R but it is so hard..I have decided to no longer call or text him while he is at work. After all if he's really not working I can't control or change that because of a text now can i? I really regret the things i've done recently and wish I could go back to just 6 weeks agao when we seemed to be on the road to recovery..We laughed together, watched movies, Made love and he was affectionate..But it wasn't enough for me..I was pushing for those 3 little words and instead I pushed him further away..now we barely speak and dont even sleep in the same bed..although his schedule contributes to that.I'm sorry to ramble on and on..I am trying to keep myself busy so I dont feel tempted to call or text..