Had a coaching session today...tired of being stuck in the rut. She said/feels he and I feed off of each other's negativity, I am not consistent with my actions. One time I wave when he drives by, next time I don't....she states he needs to see me being consistent. So this is new goal...consistency!! She agrees I have been at this long enough, it is ok to shake the boat a little. We re-visited the apology to the parents, then she asked if I had ever apologized to him. I said i've apologized to him numerous times. She asked me to tell her how I said it, "H, I'm sorry for what I did, and for being a mean angry monster, I can apologize and apologize but nothing will take back what I have done, I can not change the past, all I can say is I'm sorry." She said that wasn't much of an apology...so next goal...working on an apology letter to him. Which I have just about completed. she said be brief to the point, make specific references, etc....and to have no expectations. Do it, knowing it is the right thing to do.
we shall see! christa
H-32 Me-29 T-10years M-4yr (10/04) Me- WAW 1/07 I filed for D 2/07 D put on hold 5/07 H re-files for D 9/08 WOW! trying MC 10/08
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