Thanks Ian. I have to beat My Mantra in my head. Be still!
Jack, You are right I hate failing, because I don't fail. Even if I do fail I don't see it as failure because I try beyond my best. Constantly raising the bar.
I know you are telling me what worked for you to reach your spouse. I could most likely give the same good advice to others, but fail to implement.
I guess the confusing part is this: When she says she felt like I never loved her. I have to tell her why it isn't so.
Then there are outside influence's and saboteurs. Her sister filled her head up with BS for years. Her friend feeds her head with BS. Now her mother is going around running her mouth. When it is her mother that most likely caused her problems.
You know what really bothers me. Her Aunt and Uncle reached out to me, just to ask how I'm doing. Do you think her mom and dad would do that? Her sister? Her sister tells me to go to therapy, because she goes and it helps her. Said she will not talk to me until I go see a therapist. She acted like a marriage and relationship expert to her sister and she was the one that was dysfunctional. Dad and I were so close. Even when I see him for a little while he acts like nothing is wrong, and goes and eats his piece of pie. That is how he handles everything. Have some pie... have some pie.... I don't want any damn pie.
You know the weird part is I didn't feel down this morning. I feel sick. Sick that this family is so screwed up.
