I don't know if validated is the right word. I don't know how I feel about it, honestly. I know that I love them, I miss them. But it hurts because I am not their mother, I have no ties or connection to even be 'granted' some 'visitation' rights, etc. I have no right to ask to see them and certainly there are no grounds for anyone to grant it. Yet, these two were my children. I did the best that I could and now, I just feel absolutely used. I feel utterly like my H never wanted a wife, but a babysitter. I completely feel used, like he absolutely doesn't give one rats a$$ about our marriage or me- it's all about him.
Today, I'm lost. I'm having a hard time. My mother left today, flying in to my grandmother. Grandmother is having a pace maker put in, but the Dr. wants to move her to another hospital in another city, so we're just waiting on some logistics. So far, she is doing well. There are some risks involved, but after seeing her actual Cardiologist, it looks good.
I did send a very simple, short, to the point email to my H to let him know about my grandmother... he always seems concerned whenever there were health related issues with my grandparents. Plus SS is very fond of her too. She is really the only 'great-grandparent' he's ever known. I don't expect a response from him, nor have received one either. I probably shouldn't have bothered.
