Mulesqb still getting kicked in the a$$

[mulesqb]

Indigo - I didn't take what you posted as being harsh at all. I actually think you are right on. Sometimes I wish I had made better, stronger decisions - maybe I would be in a better place with her right now.

I really think you are right about her and the state of our marriage. I think if she would work harder on things everything else would become manageable. Also, understand that part of my complaining is the jealousy I feel about the time that the neighbors get to spend with her. She's my W and I love her with all my heart - I want to spend time with her both alone and with our sons. When you are a family I don't think that is too much to ask. But I certainly recognize now more than ever her need to have friends of her own as well as activities. Based on what others have written about their MLC spouses, I guess I should consider myself somewhat lucky that she wants me to spend time with them with her.

Until Feb 5th I was never insecure about anything in my life. That speech changed everything - and I have been slowly working back to getting rid of those types of feelings.

Thanks for the kind words - you guys sound like you have an incredible R. I was there for a long time with my W. As long as I am coherent enough to remember what that felt like with her - I will keep battling to get back there with her. I also keep praying that this crisis will eventually produce a new and even better version of her.

Thanks so much for the thoughts!