Hi lodo, Thanks for understanding... I still clench up when I walk into that house.. It's like my body is rejecting what I was when I lived there.
I do miss my kitchen. We had remodeled a few years back, it was my dream kitchen.. Took my Dad (he does kitchen designs) & me over 6 months to come up with a remodel design that fit into the existing footprint of the house. Didn't knock anywalls down.
There were electrical outlets every 30 inches, (as opposed to 2 in the whole kitchen before!) quarter-sawn 15" deep, red oak cupboards, stainless steel door/drawer pulls (ratio-sized for the height/width of the door/drawer) stained-glass custom-designed (by me)cupboard door inserts, stainless steel appliances.. (sigh). I guess the food doesn't taste any different prepared in my kitchen now as opposed to that one, but boy there are sure times that I do miss the it!
H & I have C today I am anxious. This is the first time back in C together since April of last year. I did not get to sleep until after 3 am and then had really weird dreams.
It is almost a 2 hour drive to the C we are going to see, which will mean we will spend most of the afternoon & early evening together. I'm taking my iPod so I can retreat if needed into my music. Cowardly I know, but right now i still need to find ways to protect myself.
Divorced 03/2010 Mom to two amazing kids
Taking the road less traveled because those encountered on the way may be just as unique.
