Well, I totally understand that feeling, Rusty. I've had it myself. When we were first separated, he would come over to the house quite a bit to see the kids, and even if I was out and about, I still felt "lighter" because I knew where he was.
It's when I get a glimpse of his "other" life that I come crashing down. And I'm getting lots more glimpses now that both kids are out of the house.
In your case, though, you still have so much contact, that even going a day or two or three without hearing from him or seeing him doesn't mean he's not thinking about the situation.
As for yourself, the GAL is for you, not him, so that overall you feel happier about yourself and your life. With or without him.
Married: 25 years Separated: 5 years Kids: 2, ages 21 and 24 Me: 53 H: 50
