Ugh, what another day. I'm just tired of life. So very very tired over the last 2 1/2 years. Will I ever be happy again?
Anyway, ...... so today, the appointment with D2. Dr. doesn't think it' sa cyst. Said it probably would have gone away by now. Thinks it's tissue/skin, and probably harmless but still needs to be removed as it can pose issues in the future. So my tiny little baby will be having surgery. I'm dreading it as anesthesia TOTALLY freaks me out. I don't do well with it, my Mom doesn't, so I'm really worried for D2. We need to go to Children's next week for the ultrasound to make SURE of what exactly it is. If it's NOT attached to anything, he said it would be a pretty basic surgery ,and she's probably have to stay in the hospital one night. If it is attached to anything (specifically he's worried about the thyroid) then he said the surgery is a bit trickier and she could be in a few days. I'm totally wigged out. But trying to hang in until we know for sure.
OF course H had the standard answers when I called to tell him about it all. "you know she'll be fine. She's tough. Blah, blah blah". Honestly ,I know he means to help, but I guess I'm so tired of the "kids are resilient" speech from him when we discuss the D and the girls, that it sounded more like that. Anyway........
So not a great day. Could've been a lot worse though. Guess I need to focus on that.
So my friend watched D6 so I could take D2 to the appt. alone. So went back to get her, and we ended up staying and riding her horses, and staying for dinner. Helped pass another night without H so that was good. H will be out to see the girls tomorrow, and might actually stay the night. I wis hit was a good sign, but it would simply be because he has Friday off during the day (has to work that night) and wants to spend part of the holiday with the girls. He is living an hour and 15 minutes away right now, so it truly makes no sense for him to wait to put the girls to bed (9:00pm), then drive home to sleep, then get up early to come back out the next morning. So I offered. He seemed receptive to it. So we'll see.
Another day down. Still cannot find a job to save my life. Could he have picked a WORSE time for a SAHM to renter the job market?
Chris
Last edited by 7 Year Itch; 07/03/0804:52 AM.
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
I'm dreading it as anesthesia TOTALLY freaks me out. I don't do well with it, my Mom doesn't, so I'm really worried for D2. We need to go to Children's next week for the ultrasound to make SURE of what exactly it is. If it's NOT attached to anything, he said it would be a pretty basic surgery ,and she's probably have to stay in the hospital one night. If it is attached to anything (specifically he's worried about the thyroid) then he said the surgery is a bit trickier and she could be in a few days. I'm totally wigged out. But trying to hang in until we know for sure.