I'll keep the meds in mind. I don't like the idea of being on any kind of drugs. I even hate taking aspirin.
Today, my H took my son camping for a couple nights. He does the father/son trip every year. I sit here alone and it feels ok. I did text him a "miss you guys" message. I love it when H does stuff on his own. Tomorrow I plan on shopping and enjoying my time alone....maybe get some house stuff done that I can't get done when S is here. There will be a pull toward contacting OM. I convince myself that H has an investigator and intel like puppy talks of to make myself not "go there".
So many of the spouses left behind say how they know that the WW will eventually realize that they have screwed up. I know I have screwed up, I regret going outside of the marriage while still being married, my life without my H would be less than I want....and yet.......I still can't embrace it all wholeheartedly. The mind is an amazing thing.
