Thanks, Karen, I believe so too. I have come to realize that if my W is going to continue walking away from our M and continue with her selfish, sinful behaviors then God is planning on removing her from my life, not as a punishment of me but to save me for something better in life.
So while God "hates divorce", if we allow Him to He will use any adversity to lead us on a more spiritually healthy path, to replace what is wrong in our lives with something far better.
--- W is now trying to experiment again with the parenting schedule. She was trying to push us back to the 5-day/9-day schedule, but is wanting to experiment with having just S7 stay two additional nights. She picked them up on her mid-week evening (we each take one evening during the other's week of custody to spend time with our S's, to break up the long week of little contact with the other parent.) Took them swimming at the Y. She was planning on keeping S3 with her the last two nights of my week, but S3 wants to stay wherever S7 stays.
When W dropped them off this evening after their swim, they were all still in their wet swim clothes, W included. I tried to ogle W, but her turn of character sours any positives I would have thought of her. Still, I really, really miss the old W. Where is that sweet, modest person I once knew?
Tomorrow, July 3rd, is our 17th Wedding Anniversary. I started to say something to W this evening, but I stopped myself. And I wondered (again) about writing a letter. I won't waste my time on gifts or cards this year. But I feel compelled to say or do something, to at least acknowledge the day to her, to let her know it has not slipped my mind.
