I'm sorry things are at a standstill for you. Have been doing some reading lately, trying to get my mind in shape for what is to come. You could say that I have dropped the rope, quite a bit. W seems to be progressing further into her "own life".
The younger kids are getting very scared any time I go out of town. After I announced an upcoming trip recently, you would have thought I was being sent to the middle east. All though this is not where you want your marriage to be, at least you can enjoy your kids, choose to improve yourself personally and be involved with your kids day to day lives. When you got the big D looming over your head day after day, it makes it hard to stay positive.
I'm glad you had a good time down here in Portland. I like a lot of that town. Let me say I am proud of how you are making sure not to put yourself in possible sitches that could lead in the wrong direction. That has been my approach also. I don't want to cause more problems in this whole sitch.
