You sound like you are moving on in the best way possible. The best revenge, as it is said, is a life well lived. And, you are proving that adage!
I just got back from a long weekend in Portland, OR! What a lovely area --- I would definitely recommend it. There is a little town on the way to Hood River, that looked so quaint and lovely (can't think of the name off-hand). Definitely, as an artist, an inspirational place to visit and/or live.
Below are a few quotes about forgiveness that I love. I hope you find a way to feel indifferent to her, one day. That would be the ultimate healing for you and many of us on this BB (including me, I'm afraid).
There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness.- Josh Billings (1818 - 1885)
Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were.- Cherie Carter-Scott, "If Love Is a Game, These Are the Rules"
It really doesn't matter if the person who hurt you deserves to be forgiven. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. You have things to do and you want to move on.- Real Live Preacher, RealLivePreacher.com Weblog, July 7, 2003
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim