Thanks for visting D.R.and KAW could have used those words of wisdom a day earlier had a bit of a back slide yesterday. I pushed when I shouldn't have ,there are still alot of ugly old feelings there! I was a bit shocked after 18 months. On a postive note we seem to have moved past it very quickly. W ,I have realized is incapable of any type of contenious talks. For the first time I've realized how emotionally and physically upsetting these are for her and will have to let her iniate them in the future(she does like to hide behind her denial though and it could take years ,hope I'm around in the end). She really is a mess but I realize it's up to her to sort herself out. She also continues to tell me to find someone else or to have an A ,I think shes doing this out of guilt and I'm prepared to wait. Sex isn't everything (as I've learned in the last 18 months LOL!)but I sure don't want to give it up for the rest of my life! Yes KAW dbing has changed my life and given me back that ability to enjoy life again what ever the outcome I'm a far better person for it! C.
