Sometimes rock bottom is a really long way down. Its so good for you to have another focus right now that is not related to H. I think its good for him as well. He will soon realize that you are not waiting for him to grace you with his presence and that may come as a shock to him. Its a good experience for him to have these things happening in his life and no you around to pin it on.

Your whole demeanor has changed with your association with Hot Guy and your PMA is through the roof. I'm happy for you and it is good for you to get "a break" from this crap for awhile. It sounds like you also are doing some thinking about what it is that will make you happy and what you need. Good for you.
Corey

M:39
H:39
K:S14;D8
T:22yr
M:15yrs
S:12/28/07 EA/PA
3/14/08 OW preg
11/17/08 born
12/12/08 his
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Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option