Sally, F, Karen; thanks for checking in, all, and for the insights.
F, I can't imagine a fraction of what you have seen over there. When you think about the lives and families that have been torn apart by war, maybe it can help us both put a better perspective on what we have gone through...
I think finding a romance through a friendship is probably the best route to go, and since I am always making friends, something, somewhere might develop over the long term. My life is pretty full as it is, right now. I have to say, I do miss the intimacy. He!!, I miss the sex. Aren't the mid- late-thirties supposed to be the peak for a woman? Damn. Oh, well. There are outlets, if not as fun.
*** Went to my IC today, right after S saw his IC. His session went well, she said, although she didn't get my email with the whole back-story. Her words to me, quick at the end, were that the kids need to see both parents as the superheroes, so they know that if something happens to one, they will always have the other. I agree, and don't want to start sliding down that slippery slope of parental alienation. I emailed x and told him that if he'd like, the kids could stay with him a later tonight, since he wasn't going to see them for a while. I'd be home either way, if he already had plans. I just want to focus on taking the higher road, while also not becoming the door mat. Hence, the kids are staying with me and not going to his party tomorrow, and the 4th is my holiday this year.
My session was good, too. She sees continued progress. Said that the date was a good sign of me moving on, acceptance, although agreed that things are still too new; there is something to be said for learning to live life completely independently for a while, and I agree. Gave me the name of a good travel author (safe reads, funny w/o romance), a company called Service Magic dot com, to get bids for work that has to be done in the house, and the idea to look into single parent activity groups (kind of like Nikki's meetups), for new friendships and getting out. Oh, and there is a place up in NH that does Parent and kid cooking camp--S is really starting to show a strong interest. I'll have to look into some local things, too.
In-laws got a new dog today; a rescued Rhodesian Ridgeback. She is very cute, and I don't think I will ever have to walk my puppy again. They ran after each other for 15 minutes straight at top speed, then each home to pass out on the rug!
I am off to get my nails done, then home to some homework. VERY glad that I got the extension on my grad class--graduating by the end of the summer seems attainable
