You have every right to say whatever you want here and not feel like you're complaining. We know what you've been through. Just because you guys are trying to work on things doesn't mean it's not still hard. There's the questions that go through your mind and the doubt still there. I remember after my H's first affair was over and we reconciled, I freaked every time he got into even a slightly low mood. I thought....oh, here we go again, he's going to leave. It will take time. That's for sure.
The way you've been here for so many of us...you let out whatever you're feeling and don't ever think that we see it as complaining. You've come a long way.
Hugs to you!
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day