I say I am clingy because that is what my husband has told me a thousand times. One of his biggest complaints towards the end. Probably just an excuse to go out with friends but in ways it is true. I want to be with him and do things together more often than not. When out with my friends I keep thinking about ending the night to go home to him. Or I call and check in on him when I am out but if I am out he would never call to talk to me. I don't think all men would have a problem with the amount of attention I want in a relationship but he certainly does. And sometimes I do that with friends too, not to the point of being annoying but get really attached to one friend for awhile and then another one. I don't know if that makes any sense.
I am working on my own life. I want to lose some weight and start my own business (I am going to get my lisence today actually. . .) and I work most days during the week. I also have church twice a week and blah blah blah. I have enough to do to keep occupied. I still miss him though. Like I have the day off today and just wish he was here to hang out with. I miss our stress free days when we were dating and we could do nothing but still have fun just because we were together. Will I ever feel that way again? I don't know.
I want to ease up around him and just show him that things can be different but I really never see him and soon he will be moving to a new city (half an hour away) and I have not called him because I was trying to "go dark." How can we be friends. . .or how can I attempt to be his friend when we really have no reason to talk? How can I be supportive (even a little) of his desire to buy a house when that is such a destructive thing to our relationship?
Another though about this disrespect issue. . .how does one learn to be respectful? Especially when there is not a lot of good reason to be?
