You're getting kisses?!!! Dude, I hope you know how far that is from where I am at (where you tell me you once were). I can't get my W to get anywhere close enough to so much as touch me, let alone a simple platonic hug. And you're getting kisses!
Yeah, the waiting and not knowing is scary, still. But in all honesty, you'll acknowledge that all life's unknowns tend to be scary. Relax, bro. You're doing great.