I think you misunderstood. Brown Sugar Momma (BSM) is a co-worker. She happens to be a big black woman with a beautiful soul, hence Brown sugar momma. These are her words not mine. She has great faith and love for Jesus Christ. I would always lift her when she was down. Now she is walking through the valley of the shadow of death with me, and holding my hand.
She's been through a divorce. She's telling me to build a bridge and get over it. Let the anger go.
I see what you are saying. It a phase in and phase out. I have been struggling with it since day one. It's the ILYBINILWYA. I want to be intimate with you, but I don't. I want to kiss you, but I don't. I want to hug you and I do, and I then she asks herself why did I do that.
Yes the whole marriage was dysfunctional. I'm thinking more and more. It was about me being disrepectful. However I can't take all the blame. Please... I ruined her life. Because I was disrepectful.
This a BSM theory... It may have merit.
No Ian, too much has happened now to go back the way it was. I could never accept living like that anymore. Yes, I have an uncanny ability to point out the things she did.
What did I do to get treated like that from her. I guess I can see it her way, it just isn't logical. I was disrepecting my wife because a television program had some sexual imagery on it. I was disrepecting my wife when someone came to my house to help me with a project and they drank some beers. I was disrespecting my wife because she would harp on me at family functions not to drink more than three and then she would constantly ask what number I was on and cause a scene.
She's immature... always has been. I mean I should be able to go to my wife and say. Those boobies on that mermaid are crocked. It was artsy... there was nothing sexual about it.
Then the catch 22 comes. When we were picking out artwork for the addition in the bedroom she said I could get an image of naked woman. I was like WTF planet are you on. I thought she was maturing.
