Getting Off the Rollercoaster!

[addie]

Everyone, thank you for your comments.

I had a very full day yesterday with all the festivities. We arrived home at about 11:30pm and I was absolutely exhausted.

H has been calling/emailing every day. However neither S nor I had actually had contact with him since Saturday. He has not been leaving messages when he calls so I haven't returned the calls. He left a couple of messages yesterday evening and S called him back. He then also asked to speak to me. He spoke about what he's been up to, nothing about us except to say he misses us. I've remained very "cool" each time I've spoken to him. I realize that I need to start seeing/hearing changes in him. I do not want more of the same. I need to hear that he is taking steps to make changes in himself - going to IC would be a good place to start. So far that hasn't happened. For many years, I was willing to sweep everything under the rug and the patterns of behaviour continued. I can no longer live like that. I'm not throwing in the towel just yet but plan on moving forward with my life.

I'll catch up with everyone a little later.