OK, just wanted to post that I got all those negative feelings out of my system last night and 45 min later was all good! Sometimes you just have to release the thoughts, feelings, anxiety, etc and once you do you are free of it, the pressure from it is gone.
So back to standing a bit more upright today and not feeling so beat down. And yes I was the one doing the beating down, no one else, those d@mn hidden expectations! I'm sure the lack of sleep over the last several days has played a huge part too because when I don't sleep enough I slowly slide into depression.
And hey I have something to look forward to, vacation tomorrow! Off to the beach for a long weekend with the girls!! Let's see, surfing, sand castles, swimming, putt-putt, ice cream, sun, fun and best of all, the place I love to walk at night and talk with God. Walking the beach at night is to me the one place I feel closest to God and for me there is a tremendous amount of peace in it.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
