I understand how you feel about wanting to beat the depression out of your own "will" but I know from experience that sometimes, we just can't do it. The right kind of antidepression meds are not "happy pills" as such. If they were, I would probably over dose...(lol) Just kidding. Seriously, they do not make you feel "high" or "happy"....at least not any I've taken. They are suppose to just help you feel normal and able to get out of bed and function. That is what you need now. I'm not doubting your strength as a woman, but I am concerned that this is too much for anyone to overcome without some help. As one doctor told me the first time I gave in to seek help for depression.......(I was embarrased b/c I had heard that "Christians" should always be happy, etc) but he told me that everyone needs help once in a while and that it is not a sign of weakness nor should I be embarrased about it. Then he explain how the chemicals work in the brain, and if that chemical is too low, then it causes depression. The meds help raise the brain chemical up to where you feel normal again. I never felt like I was on a "pep pill" or anything like that. I used to hear people talk about Prozac being a "happy pill"....well, it did nothing for me! I would advise you to stay away from Zoloft or some others that kills the sex drive. You don't need that right now. If you talk to your doctor and explain that you can't get out of bed, etc., I believe he will recommend something. Sometimes it can be a short term thing. If he does, be sure and tell him that you don't want anything that will kill the sex drive. All of them have a certain amount of effect (I think) on the sex drive. I am now on Wellbrutin and I think it is suppose to have the least effect on the sex drive.

Got to go to work. Take care. Hope you have a better day. Please consider what I said.

Sandi

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!