Peaceful.....I can't thank you enough for posting this tonight...I have been doing so so....the day started out great..got my hair done..cut the grass...all that busy stuff.... then the evening hit...it was beautiful outside...D16 was gone..s10 was sleeping on the couch...so I went out back and sat on the patio by myself....yep....the tears came....got my divore remedy book out and started to read, right after I prayed and begged God to take all this pain away....not very good at giving it to God...
then I just got on and saw your post....everything you write even though it's brief is my life...my H has been out for 5 months but i got the speech last June....says he's been feeling this way for years....well, there's another part of my story...I jsut found out in March that my H has an 8 year old son from an affair back then....my children and i are devastated....but i still love the jerk....I have been with him for 30 years....now h is with his "soulmate"....can't stop texting her to save his life but I put a stop to that the other day when he was in my house doing it...such disrespect....
anyway....making a long story short....I want to restore my M...I want him home....I believe H is lost and he snapped....the OW he is with now is a friend of ours from 30 years ago...I want to understand all this....I want to know why...I know I probably with never know but my family is important to me and I want it back....I have always put my family first so now doing things for myself is slow going...I have low self esteem now along with all the other issues....
H tells me I'm going crazy....well....maybe I am....
What got you through each day? Did you H get scared once you said you were done? Mine just says he's doing the right thing and I just need to get over it...and move on....he's never coming home....
Thank heavens for all these great people here who have listened to me, kicked my butt...and are still by my side...this sight has been a Godsend.....
Thank you for posting a positive story....
Treese
Last edited by Treese; 07/02/0802:50 AM.
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity