I know you are right TD. It is something that I have to work on. Quite a lot of my friends and family have said things lately to me that have, quite frankly, been out of order but I am always too scared to say anything. It is like my head is screaming too but I can't get the words out because I am scared of the fall out. I am putting so much energy into keeping going, trying to GAL, trying to function at work and preparing for my encounters with H. I am also scared that if I start driving people away they won't want to be there for me and I won't be able to GAL. At the same time it doesn't make me feel very good about myself.
