Real life is----part 5

[Starshyne]

Mark...I think I am doing or have done everything you have suggested. Well except for turning off the phone, but I have work related reasons for that. All of my food is now stored in a freezer at my mom's house. I don't talk to him about legal stuff. I told him that he is the one that chose to have an affair and wouldn't end it and I was just telling people who ask me the truth. I have cut him off of everything that I legally can. I am thinking of turning off the washer and dryer because he thinks it is a laundry matt over here. I am no longer going out of town.

The only thing I disagree with you on is selling my house. I have no desire to move from here. I LOVE this house. I can afford it, I like the location, etc etc. I have given up so much in the past 8 months. All of my dreams have vanished basically and now I have to make new ones. But the one dream I am not letting go of is this house. He has 15 days from now to get out and if he doesn't then I am calling the police. In 15 days he can no longer legally be here.

I know that just giving him the money he wants to end this is the best thing in the long run. My lawyer doesn't like the idea at all and wants to fight it out in court. I know that the OW is spoon feeding him lies about how much money he should get from me. He doesn't understand anything. He doesn't know the words refinance or equity. Paying off the car and telling him that is like giving him $3000 mean nothing to him. He would rather have the $3,000 in cash. He doesn't understand (seriously) why we can't just erase my name from the title of the car and he take over the payment and I hand him over $7,000. He told my Dad that he is sacrificing so much with this deal. He also wanted to know how much my payments are to pay back my Dad for all of this and why I can't just get a loan for another $500 to give him. I really don't get the reason WHY he thinks I owe him money. Obviously that is coming from the OW. I personally don't think I should give him anything after how he has treated me. But I know that is my emotions playing a part in this business deal. Thanks for letting me ramble. I have so much just in my mind and I need to get it out.

I signed all of the papers this morning. Now in 2 1/2 hours he is supposed to sign the papers and get his check. I pray that he sticks with his word for once. I just can't keep living like this.