You do what you wanna do, I leave it all up to you

[Sugar and Spice]

FYI: the title is from I'll fall in love again by Sammy Hagar and its one of my favorites.

Talked to H for and hour and 1/2 today and we talked a lot about what needs to happen. He has realized that he has painted himself into a corner and keeps apologizing for how things have turned out. It doesn't do much, but its still nice to hear sometimes. We are going to get his name off of the house and file for LS. I was straight out honest with him and told him that I'm just not really ready to file for D. I'm willing to do the LS, but the D just seems so close to the end. Maybe I'm a fool, but I'll at least be an honest fool. I was shocked to hear him say that he isn't ready for that either. It doesn't get my hopes up or anything, but it was nice to hear.

He also said that he knows he has never treated me right and doesn't think he is capable of it and I told him that if we were to ever try then both of us could learn how to treat the other better. Who knows.

DD is 7 today. It amazing how quickly things can change. 7 years sounds like a long time, but its been the blink of an eye.