I now know she has noticed my changes and all the stuff you said seems positive was. She told me days she thinks we will make it and others she does not. I will take that as hope and keep doing what I have been doing that works.
I just need to be patient as you have said many times. Lots of hurt feelings and miss read signs by both of us. We were too busy trying to keep the peace that we forgot how to tell each other when we were hurt or what our needs were.
Just part of life. Now that we know I hope we can make changes that will improve our R.