Thanks Jeremy one of the things I do now is over analyze everything. What if I did this? What if I did that? What if I sat down after the last time I made love to wife before bomb and just looked at her and said. I really really love you, and wish I could stay at home with you all day.
Well maybe the other reason for being cold this morning despite being tired is she texted me at about twenty after 12 last night.
She says good night boys. Then she sent another text. How is son.
I didn't bother to text back...
The thing is I'm stewing in my thoughts. It isn't helping and it is not healthy. It would be nice to just go cold, numb, and not care.
