I suppose the meeting did go as expected and in terms of my goals for the meeting everything was met. - I was upbeat (apart from the silent tears bit but hey, we're all human) - He was taken aback by my 180 with regards to the sale of the house (maybe it might make him think?) - He is in no hurry therefore it still gives me time to DB and for him to see the positive changes in me. - He agreed to help me with the house. - I came out of the meeting being able to hold my head high.
I think what I didn't realise is that I would feel other things and throw up new things for me to try and process, or churn over again depending on how you look at it!
- This still makes me very sad - I had subconsciously hoped that he would throw his arms round me and say that he was sorry, he loved me and he wanted to come home and we didn’t have to sell. Dumb huh! - I still have strong residual feelings for him and hate to see him go down this road. - I hate to have a failed marriage and I hate that I have lost him. - It really hurts that he doesn't think about me, he has said this in the past and it has really hurt. I feel like I can't go dark, which proved results before, because of having to see him to sort this house stuff out and seeing him doesn't give him a chance to miss me. I suppose all I can do is show him that time spent with me isn't negative and to try and have fun even though we are doing really negative things like selling our house and eventually divorce.
Oh and the thought of your office makes me chuckle! lol! I suppose it must brighten things up :-)
