Thank you, friends, for checking in on me. Enjoyed Saturday afternoon with my friend. Helped him do some shopping (he has color "issues"). He couldn't provide too much feedback about my current situation, but it was nice for me verbalize my feelings of betrayal, sadness, fear.
Yesterday I drove up to Shaver Lake with my dog. It was beautiful, but way too crowded. I needed some solitude. Some peace and quiet. We drove up past Shaver to Balsam Meadows and hiked back to a reservoir. Only saw three other humans. It was awesome. I'll post a couple photos over 'there'.
Feelings of sadness continue today. I'm not depressed, just very, very sad. I hate it.
Can I just sit by you & hold your hand while you're sad ? Do you know the stages of grief ? sad is in there. It's okay to grieve. It's okay to be sad. Like I told Ms Gypsy about a pity party, just decide how long it's going to last, 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, whatever, then when the times up, blow your nose, wash your face, & get on with life. & sometimes, you can't give it a time frame, it just needs to wash over you when you least expect it.
xoxoxoxox
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
