You may want to read some of the stuff I posted. It may give you some insight. I understand & talk about broken.

You can start here;

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1488765&page=0&fpart=1

M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months
4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10
I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.