Looking for support from other WAS's

[christarn]

Lost~ I am just catching up to your sitch, sorry stepped away from the boards for a while!! anyway, welcome...you will find awesome support and make some great friends here. I know I could not have made it through the past year without the people around here!!

anywho, on to business!! I walked out a year and a half ago..about 5 months later had a come to Jesus moment, realized what horrible decision I had made, tried to talking to the H about, and well...he's not really on board with the whole working it out thing...so long story short...here i am. And it's an ok place to be. I have learned more about myself in the past year than I thought possible. I have grown spiritually, mentally, and in my relationships with friends and family. I have learned tremendous things about myself that I never would have learned had it not been for this experience. don't get me wrong, if I could take the decision to walk out back...I would do it in a heart beat...and there isn't anything I wouldn't do to work things out with my H. But, I needed to grow and learn, and experience some life lessons on my own....and believe me girl...I'm learning some good ones!! Case in point...had to clean out gutters full of slimy tree poop...YUCK!! This is the first time I have ever been on my own...went straight from living with my Dad, to living with my H...so I think/feel...I needed to learn some serious life lessons!!

I guess what I am trying to explain is...what you are feeling, we (WAW) have probably all felt...am I making the right choice, should I really be doing this, am I going to regret my decision. Time, it really is on your side. Patience, it's the hardest thing to learn/get accustom to...but patience and time...they really are your friend. No decision has to be made until you are ready, and your H is ready. Even if papers are filed...nothing happens over night. Take your time and do what feels right.

If you're really bored and need reading material...check out my sitch. My D, is on hold and has been for over a year. I still have hope. I have my days, where I want to give up and call my H and say no more, i fold. But then something inside of me says no, you have come to far. at this point if he wants the D, he has an atty on retainer...he can call the shot!!

take care of yourself...it's the most important thing to do in all of this.

big hugs
christa