Hey kat,

Thanks for checking in on me. I had an incredible swim tonight. I love the feeling of my body moving through the water. I can feel my muscles move, propelling my mass forward, and the glide that follows. It's all so clean and fluid, like a seduction of flow.

I'm okay. I don't know - a bit erratic I guess, but feeling okay with that. It's all part of the process.

That reminds me of a poem I once memorized. Can't remember the name of the poem, or the poet, or even if these are the right words, but here goes:

"When I'm in a field
I'm the absence of field.
This is always the case.
Wherever I am
I am what is missing.
When I walk
the air parts before me
and always
the air fills in
the spaces where
my body's been.

We all have reasons for moving.
I move
to keep things whole."


Divorced: 10/26/08